Yes this may be surprising, I was only 13 years old that time. But, don't know how or why it happened to me so early. I fell deeply1 in love with a guy, who I used to think was annoying 2 months ago.
It was 1997, in Chittagong, Bang- ladesh, me and my family have just moved to a new apartment in a new area. So, after few weeks have passed, I started going back to school, since it was during Ramadan we moved. Well, I made some new friends in the neighborhood. This girl who was always hanging out with, her name was Ivy2.
One day when I was going to school, I bumped3 into Ivy on the way out of my building, and she was standing4 next to this guy, he lived in the building right beside mine. He said Hi to me, and we just asked each other how are you and blah blah, then I had to leave. But I noticed that guy was looking at me. It was a different kind of look, look with love in his eyes. Few days later, I noticed whenever I go to school and come back from school, he is standing in his balcony5, and smiling at me. If he is not around, and one of his friends see me, they start to yell6 out his name. Oh yeah, by the way, his name was Mamun.
So, I was very annoyed7 by those things. And I even told Ivy to tell Mamun to sTOP these foolishness. After my exams were over, I had a break. So I used to go to the roof and read books to spend my time. Mamun used to come to their roof also and both roofs where so close to each other that you can just jump from one to another.
once I was reading a book, and I noticed Mamun come to their roof and he looked at me, and smiled. OH MY GOD! I don't know what happened to me. That sweet smile just took me away. I smiled back at him, for the first time. I could never forget that moment. We used to smile at each other whenever we saw each other, but never had a chat. I was sure that he liked me a lot, because, anytime he would see me on the roof from his balcony, he came up to the roof right away. I fell in love with him very deeply. I was surprised that I did. The feelings I had was so beautiful and made me so happy.
Mamun did come to my roof one day to talk to me but I wanted him to go away. I didn't want any one to see us talking. As you know, in Bangladesh rumors8 go around so fast. When we talked, I saw deep love in his eyes. I always smiled at him; I didn't talk to him much. Still, life was going on so wonderfully. Mamun never told me he loved me. I thought that was because, I was 5/6 years younger than him.
Very soon, I found out that me and my family are leaving Bang- ladesh and coming to Canada. I was devas- tated. I cried all night but there was nothing to do. When Mamun found out, he asked me on the roof, if it was true. When I said yes, he asked how long will I be in Canada. The answer was maybe forever, we were going to settle9 in Canada. He looked depressed10, all he said was Oh, then I told him out flight date.
The next month, it was Ramadan again. Mamun came to say good bye to me on the roof, he was leaving to spend his Eid with his family. That day, I was so sad, I felt like I lost something very important in my life. We said goodbye to each other, he said he thinks I am such a sweet girl, he hopes I have a great life in Canada. Oh my god, I couldn't hold myself, I think my eyes became watery11. I didn't want him to see that I was crying. I said you too and tried to smile and left the roof right away.
That was the last day I ever saw my first love. Now 4 years later, here I am in CANADA. I have guy in my life now, whom I am deeply love with after Mamun. I never lose him.
I am ... over Mamun now. Everytime I remember those days, looking at each other on the roof, talking, I feel really down. I wonder where he is now, if we will even meet again... I can never forget my first love.
这或许会让人吃惊，由于那时我才13岁。但，我也不了解如何那样早就即将来临到我身上了。我深深地喜欢上了一个男生，可就在那两个月前我还觉得他是个让人讨厌的家伙呢。
1997年在孟加拉国的吉大港，我和家人刚搬到一个新地方，住进新公寓。因为大家是在斋月搬的家，因此过了几个星期，我才开始回到学校上学。我在街坊里交了一些新朋友，总和我一块去玩的那个女生叫艾维。
有一天，我正要去上学，刚出家门就碰到了艾维。她站在那个男生旁边，他就住在大家隔壁那栋楼房里。他跟我打了声招呼，之后大家也只不过问他们你怎么样之类的话，然后我就离开了。但我注意到那个家伙在看我，而且是一种别样的眼神，眼里充满爱意。几天后，我发现我每次上学放学的时候，他都会站在阳台上朝我微笑。假如他的朋友看到我，而他又不在旁边，他们就会对我喊他的名字。哦！对了，他叫马蒙。
因此，我对于这类事情也十分恼火。我甚至让艾维转告马蒙停止这类愚蠢的行为。考试结束后我有个短暂的假期，常常会去屋顶看书打发时间。马蒙也常常去他们的屋顶，两个屋顶之间是这样接近，甚至一跳就能跳到另一个屋顶。
有一次，我正在看书，发现马蒙也来到他们的屋顶看着我笑，哦，天哪，真不了解我如何了，他甜美的笑容居然把我迷住了，我不禁也对他笑了，那是首次对他笑，我永远忘不了那个时刻。将来每次看见他们都互相笑一下，但从来没说过话。我敢一定他很喜欢我，由于无论何时他从阳台上看到我在屋顶上，他也立刻跑上屋顶。我一个人也非常惊奇，我居然深深地喜欢上了他。这种感觉很美妙，我也非常高兴。
一天，马蒙来到我家屋顶上跟我说话，但我想让他离开。我不想别的人看见大家说话。你也了解，在孟加拉国流言蜚语传播非常快。大家谈话时，我从他眼神里看出他对我的爱恋。我并没和他说太多话，一直对他微笑。街拍样这样精彩地过着，然而马蒙从来没告诉过我他喜欢我。我想这可能是由于我比他小五六岁是什么原因吧。
非常快地，我发现大家家就要离开孟加拉国去加拿大了，我彻底绝望了，我哭了整个晚上，可这也无济于事。马蒙了解后，在屋顶上问我那到底是否真的。我说是的，他问我在加拿大会待多长时间，我说可能是永远，大家要在加拿大定居。他看着非常沮丧，只说了声哦，之后我告诉了他航班的日期。
下个月又到9月斋月了，马蒙来到屋顶上与我道别，他要去和他的家人过开斋节。那天我心里特别难过，我感到我失去了生命里尤为重要的东西。大家互相道别后，他说他觉得我是一个非常讨人喜欢的女生，并祝愿我在加拿大生活愉快。哦，天哪！我几乎没办法克制自己，我想我的双眼一定水汪汪的，我不想让他看到我哭了。说完你也是，就努力笑了笑，立刻离开了屋顶。
那是我最后一天见到我的初恋。目前我已经在加拿大生活四年多了，我的日常也有了男友，他是在马蒙之后我深爱的一个人，我绝不会失去他。
目前，我和马蒙的事已经过去了。每次我回忆起那些日子里，大家在屋顶上互相看着彼此聊天，我还是真的感觉非常难受。我不知他目前在什么地方，大家能否再见到彼此但我永远忘不了我的初恋。
